And We Begin Again

On Wednesday morning this lovely little package arrived by FedEx...

With all of my new medicine and needles...

And a really cool little BIOHAZARD trash can...

Shoes would have been a lot more fun...but the cute trash can is definitely a close second!

This morning I started my first of many shots to get ready for our next frozen embryo transfer. We thought we were going to have to wait until April, but our doctor gave the go ahead for March. It will probably be around March 9th. At first I really wanted a month off of nothingness but now I am just ready to get things moving.

I have included a few needle shots below. Sorry if this way too much info and more than you want to see. If you don't like needles just scroll past them. I want to be able to have this to read and remember someday. Really I don't think I will forget the multitude of shots, but in 10 years you never know. Plus if a baby does result from all of this, he/she needs to be able to see everything their mama went through to get them here...

My lovely morning belly shot...it's not too bad. I barely even feel it and hardly ever bruise.

I will start this guy in my hip/behind in a few weeks...not as much fun as the other one.

It hasn't been a great few weeks after talking to our doctor about the last FET. We've basically been told my eggs/embryos are not of great quality and that is the reason it is not working. We've been told that even though we still have four embryos left, the likelihood of them implanting is very slim.

As impossible as it sounds, I refuse to believe everything we are being told. By medical terms, yes it is impossible, but by God terms it is not. The God I love and trust is bigger than all we are facing. He is not a God of statistics and percentages but a God of miracles. He already performed a miracle in allowing all of our embryos to survive to day five and I believe He can make the impossible happen again by letting one of them stick. The verse below gives me much encouragement for our remaining four...

"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory...for ever and ever! Amen" Ephesians 3:20-21

If the FET is a success in March it will be by the power of God alone. Praying for the impossible, hoping for a miracle...